Sunday, April 4, 2010

When I See Him Smile

My feet spinning circles in the water, I sat on the edge of the pool. I watched ... my family. The blessings God has given me ... playing in three feet of water ... the shallow end. Someday they'll all be in the deep end ... but for now, they stay in the shallow area where James and Kregg can reach the bottom and keep their chins above the water.

Just the five of us in the pool room. It was quiet and warm. Nine thirty at night. We were the only visitors out on Easter Eve. My husband has a key to his employer's pool house. We can go nearly anytime of day or night ... and play ... just us.

On this night, I watched each of my guys ... Jerry, Clay, James and Kregg. I didn't get in at all. Just dangled my feet in the warm water and enjoyed the view.

As I let my heart take in each sight and sound, I remembered a prayer from my youth. A prayer I whispered at 16 years old. I asked God to let me marry this boy ... then, I asked him to let me have children and to enjoy them.

In the chaos of my everyday life, I ask God to get me through the day. I ask Him to bless me with funds to meet each financial obligation. I ask for my home to stay warm in the winter and cool in the summer. Sometimes, I selfishly ask for a "good day" ... one where all five of us get along, no fights or nasty words. I ask to have a date night with my husband ... worry free ... no car trouble, no family troubles ... no job worries.

And, at the end of each day, I fall asleep ... with the answer to my prayer from 19 years ago. I married that boy and we have three amazing children ... and, I'm enjoying them.

Jerry pulled our youngest boy off the pool edge and walked to the middle where our other two boys wrestled in the splashes. He looked over Kregg's shoulder and smiled. That smile ... the smile I fell for at 15 years old. The smile I asked God to bless the rest of my life with when I just 16. I read his lips ... "what?" ... because he saw a look on my face ... "nothing" I said ... because it would be impossible to tell him where my heart was and what I was remembering.

When I see him smile ... I'm thankful for God's yes to my 16 year old prayer.

Jeremiah 29:11-14 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you."


  1. And as we desire Him, He grants the desires of our hearts [as He wills :)]...So heartwarming! And I know, seeing your family, this is something that no money or riches can equal! I'm blessed too sister to have been given a great man and blessed with a sweet son. It really makes a difference when we honor Him first! Everything falls into its places. Blessings to you sister! And may God bless you and your family abundantly! Happy Resurrection day!

  2. Thank you for this beautiful love story.

    Susan :)

  3. SO.... beautiful Aine! LOVED this

  4. Aine Thanks for reminding me to remember what God has given me, so much I have asked for and he gives it with such love.

  5. Since I know both you and Jerry...I know the looks that were on both your faces, and that makes this story so much sweeter!

    p.s.- God smiled, too!

  6. Thank you each for sharing my joy! God gives us so many little moments to clearly see His love and grace. I hope that each of you are blessed today. Aine :)

  7. Oh, Aine,
    This is so beautiful. What a precious post and tribute to GOD's love and His answered prayers!
    Praising GOD with you,

  8. Continuing to pray for HOPE!
    Storming the heavens with you for this precious one!
    Hugs, andrea

  9. Thank you Andrea. Hope went to the dr. this morning. She has to have another surgery tomorrow, they aren't sure of the time yet. Her ear is still not healing. Your prayers are a blessing to us.